Social Media Anxiety Disorder lyrics

BE MY GIRL

Seems like maybe I could learn a lot from you,

You just be yourself and let your light shine through,

You don't know how far that I'm prepared to go, 

Just so I don't let you down or let you go

Come on baby, you could learn a lot from me, 

I could be the one to end your misery,

Just give me a chance to lighten up your world,

I was thinking maybe you could be my girl, 

Be my girl

They may say I'm probably not your kind,

Maybe I don't care and you don't mind,

They may say you should ignore the hype,

Just in case I'm really not your type

We're a little different that I can't deny

But we could be together if we really try,

Maybe I'm another oyster with no pearl,

I was thinking maybe you could be my girl,

Be my girl

They may say that you should be alarmed,

Come into the situation armed,

I don't think we both should be alone,

Hoping that you just invite me home

(solo)

Come on baby we could learn a lot from this,

I can't promise happiness, a life of bliss,

All I'm saying, we should just give it a whirl, 

And I was thinking maybe you could be my girl,

Be my girl,

Be my girl

Be my girl!

Be my girl!

125

It's all I can do to raise my chin, Grew up believing it was a sin, To let a single day go by, To sit alone and only cry Each day a million things explode, Conspire to take me off the road, I need affection, I need love, Can't find the answer in a drug Stay alive, 125 Don't take that dive, 125 You let her down and turned your back, And then you could not get on track, You chased and pleaded, felt the sting, Of what the cold rejection brings Stay alive, 125 Don't take that dive, 125 I got no answers, no final score, Gonna take my chances, see what's in store, I can't get down if, I just keep going,, I'm close to know...ing (close to know...ing) (solo) You went along all that you could, They said they'd hold, not sure they would, You feel it crumbling, down below, When it comes down to it, you know Stay alive, 125, Don't take that dive, 125 Feed your drive, 125 Let your heart thrive, 125 Just Can't Take It I built your hopes up way too high, reaching up 'til they touched they sky, Little bigger, little higher, seemed like they could never fall, Now I just can't take it, just can't take it at all You fell too hard, and I should have run, We kept it going, when it should have been done, Round the corner, round the corner, Always was the wrecking ball And now I just can't take it, just can't take it at all Please, please let me leave, So sorry I made you grieve, Please, please you gotta let me go, If you only knew, how well I know, how well I know I made a lifetime of bad mistakes,  I made promises, I'd turn and break, It would serve me right, if no one ever,  Heard this little pity call, And now I just can't take it, just can't take it at all No, I just can't take it, just can't take it at all No, I just can't take it, just can't take it at all STILL I'M LOST Something's got ahold of me, I want love but I must be free, Can't see what my future brings, Can't decide on anything Once I had it figured out, Then I came face to face with doubt, Got stuck on the difference, Then I lost my confidence Then I got stuck in the weeds, and tangled, Then I was just looking for an angle, Then I was looking for the time to play it, Then I was looking for the words to say it There's a cost, the coin's tossed, still I'm lost, still I'm lost Did all that a person could,  If someone said it, then I would Lifted every weight alone, shrugged and struck out on my own Then I took a casual glance, Not sure if I have a chance, Studied all the history, Then plunged into the mystery Then I got caught, and I felt bewildered, Then I got stranded and ran unfiltered, Then I was on the verge of submerging, Then I listened to all your urging me forward One more day, guess I'm ok, guess I'm ok.... MIGHT AS WELL BE ME I've been traveling on this worn-out road, trying just to get along, Hardly know who I am sometimes, much less get it down in a song,  Been wandering aimlessly, for so long now, Keep wondering who I'm gonna be, Well, I'm almost out of it, got no doubt of it, but it might as well be me Always something, I'm supposed to be doing, I'm giving up staying ahead, Always a reason, for me to be stewing, I'm sick and tired of bleeding, I bled, I'm ready to head out, in any direction, that promises to keep me free, And I'm almost out of it, got no doubt of it,  But it might as well be me I'm drawing the curtain, on being uncertain, I've had more than my share, of wondering, if I'm cool, and tough, My head was clouded, somehow I doubted,  The things I knew all along and that I was good, enough I've been looking for someone who, can understand what I'm all about, Keeping my options open now, is loneliness worse than doubt? Can't make up my mind, it's way too hard to find, A way for opposites to agree, And I'm almost out of it, got no doubt of it, But it might as well be me A lesson in keeping, from crying and weeping, I'm trying to be thankful, to let go of hateful, It's easier, said, than done, I'm doing it my way, I'm leaving on Friday, I'm giving up battles, I didn't quite lose,  But I never quite won So I've been walking these worn-out streets, Looking for something I need, Trying to fill in this hole in my soul, The emptiness I can't quite feed, Losing the stress now, would be a success now, If only I could plant the seed, And I'm almost out of it, got no doubt of it, But it might as well be me, Yeah I'm almost out of it, got no doubt of it, But it might as well be me Yeah, I'm almost out of it, got no doubt of it... Yeah, I'm almost out of it, got no doubt of it... (repeat) ANOTHER DAY I'm not sure I'm driving, down the road, the tired run, I guess I'm surviving, some days, that's all I get done, To life I surrender, I can't make it bend my way Still you'll be alright, another week, another day Bet it won't be long till the day comes,  When the sun shines down, and we play some, Your laughter rings like distant heaven to me,  Bet it won't be long till the day comes Lost in glowing embers, See it dim and then recede But still, I remember, you were there in times of need, Summers of your life, they pile on there like firewood Crackle of the spark, another year, that's pretty good We're heading down to the station, waiting for the light, as the train comes, Straight through the night, rest your worries on me,  Can't do no harm if we pray some (solo) Reach out to somebody, something lost in the exchange, All your thoughts are muddy, can't say if you'll ever change, There to greet the dawn, your shadows go, where shadows should, Night's streetlights are gone, another day wakes up the world Another day wakes up the world, another day wakes up the world, another day wakes up, the world Tired I'm tired of going, down this road, I'm tired of this chase, I'm tired of all I've ever done, What led me to this place Regrets are all I've ever known, Not living my beliefs, Deep inside the doubt has grown, I swallowed, all my grief I'm tired of hearing all my faults, My failures and my sins, No one knows how,  To sort it out,  Nobody, ever wins (bridge) Now you see me standing here, Asking if I'd see, If we could somehow try again, If it could somehow be I don't think that I even know,  I guess I'd ruled it out, Resigned myself to what I'd live with, and what I'd live without I need some time, to sort things out, I need some time to think, I need some time to walk it through, Might need a couple drinks I always said, when things were hard, You can get used to anything, In truth, you never, left my heart, I never lost that ring coda: Love me now, I don't know how, I'm ever going to be, All that you need,  but  love me now ALRIGHT I'm alright, I ain't much in style, Uptight, strung out after a while, Afraid of light, I live at night, I'm a handful of something I'm alright, nothing much to see, Mid-life got the best of me, I'm hanging tight, not the speed of light, But it'll have to be Good times here and gone, I stayed this one too long, In every fire, someone gets burned, Maybe someday I'll finally learn I'm alright, when it's said and done, There ain't much, new that's under the sun, And my hopes up, and the joke's up, I've got my eyes wide open I'm alright, perfect is a myth, I saw the light, she woke me with a kiss, The future's bright, I'm taking flight, Close my eyes, and make a wish I've said all I can say, There ain't much left for me anyway, I've done all that I can do, Who knows which life will come true? I'm alright, I've been beaten down, Heart broke, shattered on the ground, Found the spark, in my deepest dark, Throw my hands up in the air I'm alright, had trouble on my mind, Yeah I'm alright, I'm leaving it behind, I ain't hot, I'll take my best shot,  And down the road I'm gone I'll take my best shot...and down the road I'm gone I'll take my best shot...and down the road I'm gone... HERE FOR TODAY Where am I going, what's the plan? How am I ever gonna safely land? Don't know what I'm supposed to be, I'll stick around, and maybe see Hard to grasp, harder to explain The daily flood, drives me past insane, So much that I can't control, Trying to tame this restless soul Of heartache, kept awake, Of worry, for its own sake Here for today, here for today, But while here I'm gonna make my way, Racing my mind, racing with time,  Tryin' to take a little, leave a little behind Bought into the retirement plan, Then you see how the clock outran, All the expectations raised,  For the finish line of the whole long race for the ring, don't forget to sing, Nothing with, that we get to bring Here for today, here for today, But while here I'm gonna make my way, Racing my mind, racing with time,  Try to take a little, leave a little behind (Everything comes and goes, the river runs, the water flows, ashes to ashes, from boom to bust, Earth to earth and, steel to rust...) Out of My Hands/Out of My Hands (Reprise) Time for me to see if anything, Will ever come of all my plans, I can see it winning, see it sinking too, Guess that's out of my hands, guess that's out of my hands Yeah I know about indifference, yeah, We're on the basis of first names, And I know a thing about indecision too, I can no longer play that game, I can no longer play that game Oh, I tried, to make this life mine, I drove, and saw, the see-saw, Won't sell, my soul, to the things I can't control,  I had to say "so long" Time for everyone to look around, Stop missing out, on the divine, We tell ourselves that this is all we need, and that we're somehow doing fine, That we're somehow doing fine So we break our bread and give our due, On this daily prayer we read, I can't see nothing but the winding road, Time will tell us what's ahead, Time will tell us what's ahead Out of my hands, out of my hands....

Dan Israel - "Social Distance Anxiety Disorder" - album lyrics!

1.  WIT'S END

I'm pretty much at my wit's end, 

I don't know if I can do it again,

I tried to go, but I missed then, 

Every shot I had at figuring out when

Giving up all my time, going out of my mind, 

for what then?
I'm, gonna climb, out of this pen

Never felt like I belonged,

Always somehow a bit outside,

Looking in through the window,

At the party, I guess I take pride

Solitary removed, 

In my separation from the rest,

I, only wanted, to do my best

Always drifting lonely,

Spent my days in bed,

Seems like it's the only,

Way to deal with my head,

Only nighttime eases,

Anxiety and dread,

So much I need to try to do,

Before I'm dead

I'm pretty much at my wit's end,

Gone all over, and I came back here,

Nothing much seems to change,

Get discouraged, the first sign of fear,

I admit, I'm aware, 

I admit, 'cause I'm scared,

What do you suggest?
I only wish I could be,

happy like the rest

Gave everyone a pep talk,

Forgot to save one for myself,

What's the reason I give it?

Never take some for my own health,

I'm probably doing fine, could be so much worse,

But that's not how,

People, really think, and I'm stuck here in now

Always foggy dreaming,

High above the clouds,

Messing with your brain, 

But you should be proud,

Hard to see the forest,

For the popple trees,

Hard not just to bore us,

You do it with ease

I'm pretty much at my wit's end

I'm pretty much at my wit's end

2.  BEWILDERED

I don't know what I'm supposed to do with my life,

I did everything they told me, and I did it twice,

No one listens to a fucking thing I say or do,

Would anybody miss me, or would they say "cool"?

I've been sitting here alone for so long I could sleep,

Don't have anything productive to do with my week,

Living an artist's life, it ain't for everyone,

I don't know if it's for me, but it should still be fun

And it's a long, way, to wherever,

Wherever it is, I'm bound,

Don't know why, I'm so, bewildered,

I'm just trying to get back to that feel and sound

I don't know what to do,

Out in this cold and ice,

I did everything forever, 

And I did it twice,

I might hole up in my basement,

for a couple of years,

Not answer any emails,

Not cry any tears

I've been thinking about the reasons,

That I wanna give,

I think something is the matter,

With the way we live,

Spend our lives,
Hunched over a computer screen,

It's just bound to make us nervous,

Maybe make us mean

And it's a long, way, to redemption,

When you're stuck in a tunnel of disregard,

Don't know why I'm so bewildered,

I'm just trying to get back to that old front yard

I've been sitting here forever and I'm making my move,

Gonna do what I gotta do, to get through,

I'm going out, and I'm driving all around the town,

Gonna play my guitar, and I'm gonna sit down,

In the street, I'm gonna shout, I'm gonna, be a fool,

You can spare me your rejection when you say that it's cool,

I don't need all your half-hearted, phony praise,

'cause it's all gonna turn around, one of these days

It's all gonna turn around one of these days

It's all gonna turn around one of these days....

3.  BUSTIN' OUT

There, comes a time you can't go on, all you believed in is gone, and you been simply betrayed,

There, comes a time, in everyone's life, when it feels like a murderer's knife, 

For too long, you took them throwing shade

All, them troubles gonna pass, you'll be the one standing last,

So I'm busting out, never was in doubt, though it took a bit too long,

Gonna have my day, finally have my say, though some wanna prove me wrong,

I guess time will tell, if it's just my hell, or if it's universal truth,

Now I'm busting out, what I was about, no one seemed to get but you, no one seemed to get but you

There comes a time, when no one else, except you believe in yourself, 

It's a thin, thin reed to grasp

Out on the sea with no one there, you're not even sure that you care,

If you can swim out to the raft

Here is the time for which you wait, whatever you do, you'd better celebrate

Now I'm busting out, even with no clout,

Even if I'm just reviled

Gonna take a swing, see what I can bring, see if I can make 'em smile,

I held on so long, now that hope is gone, 

But it's so good to be free,

Now I'm busting out, gonna sing and shout, find a way to just be me

I-I-I'm busting out

I-I-I'm busting out

I-I-I'm busting out

I-I-I'm busting out

4.  DON'T THINK THEY'LL SAY

You never know where the, 

next hit's coming from,

You know that it will finally land

They didn't believe you then,

Some don't believe you now, 

Might be too late when they understand

Well I, I've seen evil comin,

Over the horizon, I ain't been this scared in years,

We've seen this all before, one foot gets in the door,

Next thing you know, there's only tears, 

Well I, oh lord I do declare,

This rot is everywhere, Not sure if time is running out,

Don't have to be this way, when you look back to this day,

Don't think they'll say I was too loud

Well uh, time flies gone away,

So you look at yesterday, so you can learn your history,

Well this, hate is a running theme, even though some had a dream,

we're still stuck here with bigotry

Well you, say I make too much noise,

But I see how some destroy, 

Just with their words they fan the flame

Well it, ain't too hard to see,

I know it ain't just me,

Maybe it's time to name some names

Oh lord I do believe, can't just sit here and grieve,

Gonna raise my voice against the crowd,

When it's all said and done,

When we are forced to run,

Don't think they'll say I was too loud

Don't think they'll say I was too loud

Don't think they'll say I was too loud

Don't think they'll say I was too loud

5.  TRYING FOR A LONG TIME

I've been trying to explain it for a long time,

I, don't know what I need and I can't find,

Need, some way of explaining,

My mind, just needs some retraining,

Tell you about, this thing that I want and I can't find, long long time

Long long time

I've been trying to be liberated for a long time,

I had a little clarity and then it slipped by,

There, just for a brief moment, 

There was no need to be troubled,

Wanted to hold on and imprint it for a long time,

Long long time, long long time

I can't win, can't seem to spin it,

Any way around habitual prose,

I can't see it, no, can't believe it,

Can't talk about it in a way that anyone knows,

It was there, I would swear, even if nothing,

ever came from glimpsing the divine,

I could see the mystery but I lost sight of whatever it was, 

That made me feel so fine,

Whatever it was, that made me feel so fine, long long time,

Long long time

I've, been trying to explain it for a long time,

I've, been trying to explain it for a long time,

I've, been trying to explain it for a long time,

I've, been trying to explain it for a long time,

Long long time, long long time, long long ti-ime....

Long long time, long long time, long long ti-ime....

Long long time, long long time, long long ti-ime....

Ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah ah, ah ah

Been trying to explain it for a long time....

6.  GUESS IT'S TIME/EVERYONE

I guess it's time I started just to live,

To take each moment and give back what I can give,

I've just been frittering away my days,

You check the mirror, you're turning gray,

I still believe, I got something to say

I guess it's time to act, not to only think,

Sometimes it's all too hard, and you start to sink,

I've just been looking for a sign, 

But now it's taking up too much time,

Had just about enough of the starting line

I guess it's time, once and all, for eternity,

To do what I was meant to, unhesitantly,

so fuck this shit, I'm gonna ride,

it's tearing out my whole insides,

I guess it's time, 'cause time ain't on my side

(transition to other half of song)

Waiting on my life, and I'm getting nowhere,

I could make it bright, if I make it change,

Looking at the world, I don't think it's hopeless,

Everybody's feeling it, a little strange

Everyone's a little bit overburdened,

Everyone's had too much to take,
Everyone is primed to draw the curtains,

They got nothing left to clutch or fake

How to do it, how to get through it,

Don't know what to do,

What's the matter? Our bones scatter, time runs over you,

Time runs over you

Everyone here's a little bit bombarded,

Insanity's standing right at our door,

Everyone here's a little desensitized to,

callousness, hate and greed and war

What we doing?  Who we fooling?  What will make it right?
What're we trying?  To put off dying?  Gotta put up a fight

Gotta put up a fight, 

Gotta put up a fight....

7.  LITTLE BIT OF YOUR LOVE

I wish you could see me, wish you could believe me, I ain't gonna do you harm,

Now I think you know me, you don't gotta show me, you can simply take my arm

Make another record, reputation's checkered, it precedes me all too much,

Show you I'm for real now, show you how I feel now, 

Wanna feel your heat and your touch

Baby won't you give me a little bit of your love, of your love?

Don't take much to please me, any little bit is enough, is enough

You play hard to get now, wanna make a bet now, 

Not sure if I'll wait around,
Picking up my message, please don't think I'm desperate,

only you can hear this sound

Feelings there that haunt you, you know that I want you,

Now I find it hard to sleep,

Seeing you in red now, you're stuck in my head now,

I know you ain't mine to keep

Baby won't you give me a little bit of your love, of your love,

Don't take much to please me, any little bit is enough, is enough

(bridge)
Everybody's telling me, what I should think and do,

They don't understand, they're repelling me,

No one seems to get it, maybe you do

Baby won't you give me a little bit of your love, of your love?

Don't take much to please me, any little bit is enough, is enough

Baby won't you give me a little bit of your love, of your love?

Don't take much to please me, any little bit is enough, is enough

Is enough, is enough, is enough, is enough....

8.  SOMETHING FOR THE PAIN

They're giving me subscriptions, for madness therapy,

I need a new prescription, one that maybe gives a little clarity

Doctor doctor, I give in, my whole life's against the grain,

The agony is beyond description,

How about something for the pain?

They showed me a graph, showed me a chart,

said "this is how, the problems start"

Well I can't shake this refrain,

how about something for the pain?

I've been medicated, it's still the same old me,

I'm sitting here, agitated, do we all got the same disease?

Well you got all the answers,

Except the one, I really need

I'm sick and tired, of taking chances, 

Maybe you'd believe me if you saw me bleed, 

Another day, another restriction,

Meanwhile I can't control my brain,

I'll tell you anything, truth or fiction, 

Anything to stop this hurricane,

They push, meditation,

But I can't seem to unwind,

Letting go of your frustration,

I ain't too good at natural peace of mind

I ain't too good at natural peace of mind, alright!

(coda)
All in, insane,

Street driving, to ease the strain,

It don't help to complain,

How about something for the pain?
Breathing in, breathing out again,

It don't stop this pouring rain,

I'm looking 'round, for an aeroplane,

How about something for the pain?
How about something for the pain?

9.  VISION IN MY DREAMS

I need to warm up my soul, it's dark and chilly, oh so cold,

It's time I felt the distant sun, Might just have to get up and run

I need to move down this road, I can't read these lines in code, 

Figure out what I'm gonna be, realize deep inside I'm free

Go where my heart leads, plant some trees from new seeds,

Get back to my roots and my history, Get back to the vision in my dreams

Get back to the vision in my dreams

Feels like I'm locked out of joy, Don't get a break from money or new toys,

Tired of loneliness and pain, time for me to start over again

The lines that once were boldly drawn, now they just lead me somewhere wrong,

Life's been slipping through my hands, I need to make myself a second chance

Go off into beyond, where my troubles all are gone, 

Get back to the way that it once seemed,

Get back to the vision in my dreams

Get back to the vision in my dreams

Feb. 7 through Feb. 15, 2020

Here are my next 8 days (including tonight) - if it was Hanukkah, I'd call this "Eight Crazy Nights", but since it's just February, I call it "a very busy 8 days!)

Fri. Feb. 7 - I play solo at the The Lab in St. Paul (8 pm to 10:30 pm), no cover - it's at 767 N. Eustis Street in St. Paul

Sat. Feb. 8 - full band show (trio version, with Dave Russ on drums and Mike Lane on bass, with special guest guitarist Tommy Bentz) at Tuttle's in Hopkins, 8 pm to 11:30 pm

Sun. Feb. 9 - I take part in the tribute to Simon and Garfunkel and James Taylor, with SO many other great Minnesota artists, at the Turf Club in St. Paul

Wed. Feb. 12 - duo show with legendary guitarist Steve Brantseg at the 331 Club in NE Mpls, 9:30 pm to close

Thurs. Feb. 13 - I teach for the Loft's "Writing Song Lyrics for Teens" again at the Arlington Hills Community Center on Payne Ave in St. Paul, 4 pm to 5:30 pm, open to the public

Fri. Feb 14 - I play a special solo show on Valentine's Day at LTD Brewing in Hopkins, 7:30 pm to 10:30 pm

Sat. Feb. 15 - Katy Vernon and I both play sets at an event for NAMI (National Alliance Mental Illness) at the Mall of America, 2 pm to 3:30 pm

Schedule between now and Feb. 15, 2020

Here's what I'm up to in the next couple weeks...get ready

Friday, Jan. 31 - full band show (trio version) at the Winter Carnival in St. Paul (in Rice Park), 8 pm to 10 pm

Tuesday, Feb. 4 - duo show with percussionist Mikkel Beckmen at the Midway Saloon in St. Paul (formerly Big V's, right near intersection of Snelling and University), EARLY show, 6 pm to 8 pm

Thurs. Feb. 6 - I teach a SINGLE SESSION songwriting class/seminar called "Writing Song Lyrics for Teens" at the Excelsior Library sponsored by the Loft (part of the "Bring the Loft to You" series) - sorry I said this was at another place, this one is at Excelsior Library (337 Water Street in Excelsior) - it's from 4 pm to 5:30 pm and free and open to the public

Friday, Feb. 7 - I play from 8 pm to 10:30 pm at The Lab in St. Paul (767 N. Eustis Street) - solo show

Sat. Feb. 8 - full band show (trio version) at Tuttle's in Hopkins, 8 pm to 11:30 pm

Sun. Feb. 9 - I play at the James Taylor/Simon and Garfunkel tribute at the Turf Club, along with many other amazing artists from the Twin Cities

Wed. Feb. 12 - duo show with legendary guitarist Steve Brantseg at the 331 Club in NE Mpls, 9:30 pm to close, no cover

Thurs. Feb. 13 - I teach a SINGLE SESSION songwriting class/seminar called "Writing Song Lyrics for Teens" at Arlington Hills Community Center in St. Paul, sponsored by the Loft (part of the "Bring the Loft to You" series) - it's at 1200 Payne Ave in St. Paul - it's from 4 pm to 5:30 pm and free and open to the public

Friday, Feb. 14- Valentine's Day solo show at LTD Brewing in Hopkins, 7:30 pm to 10:30 pm

Sat. Feb. 15 - Katy Vernon and I play sets for NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) at the Mall of America between 2 pm and 3:30 pm

Let's not even go past Feb. 15 right now - that's a lot! (But there will be a lot more too - this is what I do these days, so I'm happy I'm going to be busy!)